“No, in all these things we are more than conquerors through him that loved us. For I am persuaded, that neither death, nor life, nor angels, nor principalities, nor powers, nor things present, nor things to come, nor height, nor depth, nor any other creature, shall be able to separate us from the love of God, which is in Christ Jesus our Lord.” (Romans 8:37-39)
Bursting At The Seams
Some things don’t have answers
You’re gone and it’s both rolled into one
The questions are the answer
The answer is more questions
It all goes around in my mind like an endless blur
Maybe I’m not supposed to know
Maybe my heart just needs to rest
Maybe in all I don’t know
an answer exists I could never guess
What if all the things I ponder
make me ache for something more?
It’s like standing at the waters edge
wondering what’s on the distant shore
So I reach out and touch the Infinite
My heart explodes, bursting at the seams
You are gone and I am left here
My heart grasps to know what that could mean
It’s all about you but it isn’t
You are gone and so I strive
I have to ascend these ashes
So I breathe out all my whys
Why wasn’t there more time?
Why couldn’t I see more change?
Why am I left wondering?
You are gone and I will never be the same
May I change only for the better
as this grief pulls out all the worst
In your death I’m finding freedom
I’m learning life is precious
and of great worth…
Five weeks out and sometimes it feels like five minutes. I can still hear your laughter, and the last “I love you” when we spoke. I miss you.
Life truly is precious and of great worth. Your life. My life. Our lives. I have watched life, opinions, circumstance, pride, anger, selfishness, lack of vulnerability, lies, lack of communication, personalities, lack of understanding, and mere stupidity divide my family, my friends, my country, and my own heart at times.
And then my brother died… all of a sudden, without warning. And instantaneously everything was brought into its proper perspective.
Please hear me…if you haven’t talked to your siblings in awhile, if you have let a past hurt get in the way of grace, mercy, and reconciliation, if you are holding a grudge for any reason, if you are punishing someone with your silence, if you are keeping someone in a cage of their past, if you are mad at someone because of their political preference, if you are burdened with unforgiveness in your heart toward anyone, if you can only see the bad and not the good in people…I implore you…Make the call, let it go, say the words, restore the relationship, give some grace, forgive them, put away your weapons, unlock the cage, know that a difference of opinion is not a reason to hate anyone, see the good again, reconnect…because life is precious and you never know when it may be cut short, when the time might run out…and you may never get the chance to make it right, to say “I love you,” to realize the reasons, to give them a hug…
Let compassion overcome.
Let love conquer.
Let God heal.
Written by Anne Marie Hawke
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