“Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.” (Hebrews 11:1)
“But without faith it is impossible to please Him: for he that comes to God must believe that He is, and that He is a rewarder of them that diligently seek Him.” (Hebrews 11:6)
I stood there with a thousand keys and tried them one by one. The door was immense and looked as if it possibly weighed a ton. I had stood here several times before concerning the same desperate need. But weakness and self-deprecating thoughts kept me from reprieve.
“Why do you keep trying? Can’t you see you look like a fool? None of those keys is going to work, even if you now have the proper tools.” Thoughts as scoffers came launching doubt with growing glee, but something had been resolved in the deepest part of me.
Demons now spoke in hissing tones; ”You should surely quit now. You will never breach that door. You are nothing, unworthy, you will fail as you did before!" I knew it wouldn't be easy, nothing worthwhile ever is, as I looked up to the heavens, and firmly fixed my eyes on His.
I had made it to five hundred, now halfway through the keys. Just then a quiet, persistent voice was heard beckoning me; “Don’t quit, you will get there, when your faith becomes increasingly loud. You are not alone in this, I am here and I am proud."
I reached for another key and shut out all other noise. I needed a breakthrough and this was my only choice. Conviction rose within me as I spoke the words aloud, “I will not give up!!!!!!!" I turned key seven hundred fifty, still nothing, yet I kept drinking from the Cup.
My hands and heart they hurt now, yet I chose to not give in. Anything worth having is a thing for which you should persist and win. Key nine hundred now, only one hundred left to go! My anticipation began to mount and steadfastly grow.
My pace had begun to quicken, I would have what I had sought. Behind this enormous door, the answer to all that life had wrought. My heart within me pounded, my pulse I could hear. Key nine hundred fifty-six, then suddenly everything became unclear?
Doubt and fear flooded in again, a deluge threatening to drown. I reached for the next key but it was so heavy, it pulled me to the ground. My breath quickened and my throat was enclosed by familiar hands. “Do you really think I’d let you win? You will die here where you stand!”
Despite the growing terror, I knelt down before the door. I yielded in submission to my Savior and my Lord. I felt Fear’s breath upon my neck, but I remained where I had kneeled. “All I am is Yours Lord, help me to persist despite what I feel.”
A renewed strength coursed through me, I felt Fear release his grip. I placed another key within the door, turned it, and felt the lock slip. This was the key to freedom from all which had so plagued my history. I pushed the door with all my might, and again fell to my knees.
Light engulfed my weary soul, I was lifted from the place I knelt. I drifted over the threshold and joy was now all I felt. “Well done child,” He said proudly, "This is where you were meant to be, for faith is not seeing before believing, rather it is believing until you see.”
"The fight of faith is not easy, many there are who give up. As you've tasted, there are a lot of dregs inside the Cup. When things are hardest and the answer seems far away, hold fast, cling to Me, and believe for what you pray...
Right now I am standing in faith for many things in the lives of others and in my own life. These are unprecedented times we are living in and I believe it is time to "lay aside every weight, and the sin which does so easily beset us, and to run with patience the race that is set before us, looking unto Jesus, the author and finisher of our faith; who for the joy that was set before Him endured the cross, despising the shame, and is set down at the right hand of the throne of God." (Hebrews 12:1b-2)
Whatever you are currently believing God for, press in, press on, don't quit. His word is true, He is good, He does not lie, and He cannot fail!
Father I pray that you would stir the faith of all Your saints everywhere throughout the world. I pray that we would keep our eyes fixed on You and not on the many distractions and divisions here on the earth. I pray for each individual who reads these words that You would heal, deliver, save, restore, comfort, mend, and align them with Your will and Your purpose for their lives. I pray protection over them. I pray they would surrender to You and to Your precious Son and to Your amazing Holy Spirit. I pray they would gain a new hunger for Your word, a new passion for Your heart, and a new anointing of Your presence. I pray Your life over them and in them. And I pray You would bring us together, that You would unite us as one as You are One. Thank you Abba, I believe You fiercely for all I have just prayed. In Jesus' name, Amen.
Written by Anne Marie Hawke
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